Do you ever feel like no matter how many people you spend time with in a day, you are always alone? I’m not saying that it is a bad thing – to be alone – but to feel alone even when you’re surrounded by people…that may be a bad thing. I’m not really sure yet.
So…let’s get to why I decided to write about this. First of all, over the past 2 months, I’ve stopped spending time with a person who I had spent almost every single day with over the past 2 years, and that has been a big game changer. I’m happier without that person in my life, on a daily basis…I like who I am better – I’m healthier, happier, better rested, and just feel BETTER. But, I still feel alone. When I’d spend a lot of time with him, sometimes I shared this feeling, of being alone, but some times I felt like he was the only person in the world who got me…until he just didn’t anymore. We started to fight about the stupid things – discussions became arguments – conversations that usually would be welcoming and fun became a task – and instead of being open and honest with each other – we started to hide how we really felt in order to not hurt the other person. Maybe this, in itself, makes someone feel really alone.
For years, I’ve always felt like I didn’t fit in, that I had no one to identify with, and that I wasn’t part of a culture. I still feel that way, even though I’m making strides towards being a part of something…but maybe that is just how I am. Maybe I’m meant to be alone – because it is easier for me to be alone than to trust another person, open up to another person, or even share experiences with someone else. I just feel that no one gets me. Maybe I just haven’t put myself out there enough to meet people who would fill this void?…I’m just not sure. Anywhoooo, I do love the people in my life and I couldn’t imagine it without them…but at the same time…sometimes I feel like if I just stayed at home and did my own thing every day, I’d be pretty content. I also really want a family, and maybe I’m just having a hard time adjusting to being back in the position of starting over on that dream. I want to spend the rest of my life with someone, a soul mate, and have beautiful children together…but it takes work to get there, and I want to find someone that doesn’t make that a challenge – it’s just easy. I think it could happen…but maybe I’m just naive.
Now let’s get to the fun part – bloody cunts. Hahaha – sounds gross, doesn’t it? But it isn’t, because it is natural and we should embrace this – as it gave life to anyone reading this blog. So, over the years, I’ve learned a lot about my body…I’m completely regular and have been for over 3 years now – same day every single month…it’s bloody brilliant! Each woman is different, and each person has a different monthly cycle, however, most of us (from the age of 13-55) have their monthly flow. So…with that laid out there…what can we do to make it better?
The thought behind this blog is to connect women across all ages, races, & religions, by coming to terms with our similarities – our female reproductive organs (and much more). I’ll start by saying that I hate tampons and pads. Tampons hurt me – I don’t know why…I don’t know if it’s just that I have a light flow and a small set vagina, or if the US consumer market is full of misrepresented women…I really just don’t know. But what I do know is that for the past 3 years, I’ve bought “tween” sized everything – tampons, pads, pantyliners, all to try to find something that works for me, my body, and my flow…but nothing was right! Pads are too big and don’t even fit in my panties (not to mention they are gross and feel like a diaper), while tampons hurt me 90% of the time, because they are too big, absorb too much natural lubrication, and I don’t have a heavy flow…so what is a girl to do? Become a DIVA!
A few months ago, a good friend of mine came back from her travels and introduced me to the idea of a Diva Cup. Okay, well she didn’t introduce me, as I had heard of it before, but never had a friend who used it (or openly talked about using one)…so I did some research and placed an order! Now, not only am I pro-women, pro-cunts, but I’m also pretty environmentally friendly and aware. I’m aware that tampons and pads are not good for the environment on many levels. Bleaching uses chemicals that get into the water system, aren’t good for our body, and are highly processed…disposing of waste products, in general, isn’t a great idea – because it all goes somewhere – and I don’t know about you, but I surely don’t want a beautiful natural landscape covered with bloody tampons or pads. Can you picture that? I really don’t want to!
So…I did some research and discovered Luna Pads – a Canadian based company that sells reusable pads/pantyliners, as well as Diva Cups. For those of you not familiar, Diva Cups are silicon “cups” that are inserted into your vagina and hold your menstrual blood for up to 12 hours at a time. Yeah, you think that sounds gross…but it really isn’t. It is actually pretty sanitary (just get a good wash), helps you keep track of your flow better, and allows each woman to become more comfortable with their cunts. So – I decided to place my order from Luna Pads – and I couldn’t be happier! I used it for the first time this past month, and it was AMAZING! Like seriously, amazing. I had no pain with use – couldn’t notice the cup at all – cramps weren’t very difficult to deal with – I didn’t spend $8 on tampons – I didn’t have a trashcan full of dirty tampons/pads – and I didn’t have to worry about leaks or changing things every few hours! Since I’m a small framed person, I got the “teeny pantyliners” and treated them as pads when I slept during my light days – which are basically flow free except for a little bit at night. I bought this kit – which came with a wash bottle, two little baggies, the Diva Cup, a “Diva” pin, some disposable cleansing towels, and two pantyliners (in a cute design) – and I’d recommend this to everyone!
Sooo needless to say – I’m a happy Diva and think that more women should jump on board with this idea – it’s better for your body, for the environment, and your trashcan! hahaha…well isn’t that just lovely to imagine around lunch time? Anyone hungry?…time for me to go reheat my homemade chicken noodle soup – yummmm!
Until next time – love yourself & others <3